I lost two pounds in two weeks and I am not happy.

Yeah... I know some of you out there will boo me over this pessimistic attitude... but I am having a bit of a grump-fest. I want to be under 300 pounds (finally), and yet I keep stumbling over my night eating. When I get ahold of my night eating I will start losing weight consistently. It is funny that I know the answer to the weight hold up, but I don't know the how to solve the problem. 

There is the simple answer... STOP FUCKING EATING TOO MUCH AT NIGHT! If it were that easy- I wouldn't be blogging, and this post would not exist. If I lost one pound a week until I got down to a healthy weight, I would be finished in 2012... I don't know if I can wait that long. 

I AM IMPATIENT IMPULSIVE COMPULSIVE ADDICTED FEARFUL ANXIOUS ANGRY AGGRAVATED FUCKING PISSED OFF SAD IMPATIENT IMPULSIVE IMPATIENT (said that already, but it is bad enough to repeat).

I have all of those emotions controlling my weight! I let them control my food intake- I AM NOT IN CONTROL OF MY FOOD INTAKE... I LET THOSE EMOTIONS RUN FREE! 

That is about all I have to say tonight.